If I could sleep forever I could forget about everything
oh god stomach is in knots again, why can’t i stop thinking about you? i can’t believe this is happening again, i have felt this kind of heartache before but you don’t know that, because you really didn’t get to know me at all. i have baggage like you wouldn’t believe. and i guess now you’ll never know.
i want to be strong and swear off love for good because it hurts, and when it hurts it doesn’t feel like it’s worth any of the joy it brings. i was getting to a place where i was comfortable in being alone, then you came along. now you are all I want.
i am a fool because i will let this keep happening, and as much as i swear off love, i am weak. i crave affection. and before you came along i was craving that tenderness, the love that came without expectation of sex, the kind that will stay and cuddle with you without leaving you hollow.
you’re amazing, and the thought of you with someone else is killing me. please call me. please tell me you’ve changed your mind, and that you can’t bear another second without me.
your smile says that won’t happen.